Life Sketches of Ellen G. White
Chapter 3—Strivings Against Doubt
I again became very anxious to attend school and make another trial to obtain an education, and I entered a ladies’ seminary in Portland. But upon attempting to resume my studies, my health rapidly failed, and it became apparent that if I persisted in attending school, it would be at the expense of my life. With great sadness I returned to my home. LS 26.1
I had found it difficult to enjoy religion in the seminary, surrounded by influences calculated to attract the mind and lead it from God. For some time I felt a constant dissatisfaction with myself and my Christian attainments, and did not continually realize a lively sense of the mercy and love of God. Feelings of discouragement would come over me, and this caused me great anxiety of mind. LS 26.2
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Life Sketches of Ellen G. White
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Pacific","mp3":"\/mp3\/41\/0224_eng_m_chapter_49_across_the_pacific_41_1825.mp3#duration=1326&size=5420990"},{"para_id":"41.1904","title":"Chapter 50\u2014The First Australian Camp Meeting","mp3":"\/mp3\/41\/0234_eng_m_chapter_50_the_first_australian_camp_meeting_41_1904.mp3#duration=493&size=2084788"},{"para_id":"41.1930","title":"Chapter 51\u2014The Avondale School","mp3":"\/mp3\/41\/0235_eng_m_chapter_51_the_avondale_school_41_1930.mp3#duration=2933&size=11851199"},{"para_id":"41.2086","title":"Chapter 52\u2014Through the South to the Conference of 1901","mp3":"\/mp3\/41\/0248_eng_m_chapter_52_through_the_south_to_the_conference_of_1901_41_2086.mp3#duration=881&size=3638866"},{"para_id":"41.2136","title":"Chapter 53\u2014At the Nation's Capital","mp3":"\/mp3\/41\/0254_eng_m_chapter_53_at_the_nation_s_capital_41_2136.mp3#duration=1047&size=4302451"},{"para_id":"41.2207","title":"Chapter 54\u2014In Southern 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