Ms 182, 1898

1898

Ms 182, 1898

Diary, May 1898

Cooranbong, N. S. W., Australia

May 9-31, 1898

Portions of this manuscript are published in 5MR 188; 4Bio 348-350.

Monday, May 9, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

Last night was a critical period for me. I was quite weak and yet thought I would not call anyone at three o’clock a.m. I was not suffering except with my heart; strange sensations were experienced. My pulse was feeble and I could not breathe unless my mouth was open. I asked the Lord to take me in His care and I believe that He would, but I was growing weaker. I must do all possible for myself. I must call Sara while I had strength. With difficulty I found my way to the door and opened it and called Sara three times, and I thought she responded. She heard me and was at my side. She did all she could do. The weakness continued and I kept looking to the Lord, for I felt certain that my work was not done. Ms182-1898.1

About daylight relief came. I could breathe better. The oppressive sensation left me, but there was greater pain for a time as though my heart was wrestling under difficulty. I could not sit up. Great exhaustion was upon me. Ms182-1898.2

Three o’clock p.m. I was very thankful that I could eat my dinner, for I was so very weak. I needed nourishment and I enjoyed my dinner—fresh green peas from our vines, very tender and palatable, with crackers. I can say, “What a Friend we have in Jesus, all my griefs and woes to bear, What a privilege to carry everything to God in prayer.” Ms182-1898.3

Tuesday, May 10, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

Slept until half past three and then I felt so very thankful to my heavenly Father that I can leave my bed, although very weak. I can be on my feet and walk about some and help myself. I dread to have to be waited upon. Ms182-1898.4

Sara and I rode out about two miles to a lemon orchard. Although it consisted of only a few trees, they were abundantly loaded. We obtained the native lemons for two pence a dozen—four cents in American money. While they were gathering the lemons the twins, James Henry and Herbert, now twenty-five months old, were very much pleased gathering the lemons and piling them up in heaps, and with their unintelligible language showing them to Grandma. Ms182-1898.5

I was not strong enough to leave my phaeton. I became very weary—so much so I feared I could not retain my sitting position. But I looked to the Lord for strength and kept my seat until by our own doors. Sara helped me into the house and my simple meal of refreshments did strengthen me. But I was glad to lie down. Ms182-1898.6

Monday at three o’clock I feared greatly that I had been presumptuous in writing so much. I had worked Sunday fourteen hours. I acknowledged my imprudence—but it is always a trying day, the closing up of communications. The burden was for the American people who are passing through strait places. I formed resolutions, in my peril of heart difficulty, never to be so presumptuous again. Ms182-1898.7

I could scarcely talk, yet I dictated a few sentences to W. C. White to send Brother Evans, who carries a heavy burden as president of the Michigan Conference. While I wish to feel that in His hands who gave His life for me are the issues of life and death, I do not want to violate the laws of my being by overworking. I have asked the Lord to forgive me and I believe I shall not have a long period of sickness. I believe the great Restorer will bring me again to strength. Ms182-1898.8

Wednesday, May 11, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I praise the Lord with sincere gratitude that He is restoring me. My strength has increased and I unite again with the family in prayer. I must render thanksgiving and praise for the love of God and His goodness to me. I then wrote a few pages of letter paper to our beloved Brother and Sister Wilson in Queensland. They were both earnest workers in Sydney, from house to house, opening the Scriptures to those who would give a hearing ear. Their labors were greatly blessed as an instrumentality in the hands of God of saving souls ready to perish. They are both in feeble health. They have accomplished a work which will be abiding since going to Queensland, where the atmosphere is more mild at this season, and it would be favorable for them. Both have been afflicted with a mild type of fever. I wrote some things cautioning them to be faithful sentinels of their strength and not take burdens which in no case should fall upon them, such as entertaining our brethren who are traveling to and fro. Let this burden come upon those who are more able physically to endure the taxation. Ms182-1898.9

W. C. White brought me writings that I had written for the benefit of the school, but my head was not in a condition to be taxed with any matters which require thought. I am reminded as I take my pen in hand that I am not strong to think. Ms182-1898.10

After dinner Sara and I decided to go to Morisset. We took the twins and Father Tucker, who boards with us, and we had a very pleasant ride. I enjoyed it very much. We called at the school to leave typewriter, then we called at post office and found our mail from America had arrived on Vancouver steamer. We found some very interesting letters. One written by Sister Henry and one from Dr. Kellogg were greatly appreciated by me. These were unexpected. Ms182-1898.11

Thursday, May 12, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

This morning I am thankful to our heavenly Father I have slept until three o’clock, and I feel stronger. I want to live by faith in Jesus Christ, my Restorer. Ms182-1898.12

Friday, May 13, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

This morning I have been able to sleep until half past two o’clock. This is preparation day for the Sabbath. All our work must be done up in season to welcome the Sabbath. Ms182-1898.13

Saturday, May 14, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

The holy Sabbath is past. I did not attend meeting today. Devoted my time to making an earnest appeal to our people to make earnest efforts in behalf of precious souls ready to perish. Ms182-1898.14

Elder Haskell took dinner with us. We had some important conversation after dinner in regard to the work at Stanmore. He said Sabbath and Sunday there was a good congregation. Sunday evening there were three hundred people in the chapel and he had great liberty in speaking to them. He has brought a good report, and we hope to see one hundred souls take their position for the truth. There are, I understand, seventy-six now keeping the Sabbath. Thank the Lord! Praise His holy name! Ms182-1898.15

There is a great work to be done. All have talents entrusted to them. All are not sermonizers but all are ministers in different lines. We are to study the life of Christ. He was the Son of the only true God. Ms182-1898.16

Sunday, May 15, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I had good sleep last night until nearly three o’clock, and I praise my heavenly Father for His kindness and mercy to me! I feel stronger this morning. My heart is full of gratitude to God for His great love which He has bestowed upon me. Ms182-1898.17

Mr. Smith, living beyond Martinsville, called to solicit Sara McEnterfer to go up to their house about six miles to see what is the matter with his little boy. He is quite sick. There is no physician to consult short of Newcastle. Every visit the physician makes to Cooranbong he has his service and his expenses paid. We feel very sympathetic for the sick. Ms182-1898.18

Sara has returned. She understood it was a case of constipation, and the methods used relieved the five-year-old sufferer. Ms182-1898.19

We met Sister James’ sister-in-law and Sister Martin from Kellyville. Neither have taken their position for the truth but we believe that Sister Martin will soon decide for the truth. She has been coming nearer for some time. Ms182-1898.20

Monday, May 16, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I slept this morning until nearly four o’clock. This is a rare thing for me to do but I praise the Lord for His blessing. I see so much to do that I am anxious for strength to work, and I believe I shall be strengthened to get off the matter I desire to write for the American mail. The boat Vancouver leaves next Friday. There is much matter to be prepared. Ms182-1898.21

Wednesday, May 18, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I could not sleep. My mind was burdened. There was presented before me the condition of the church in Battle Creek. When this scene passed before me, I felt very sad. I was standing up and speaking to the people in reproofs and warnings and entreaties and appeals and encouragement. I could not sleep, and I arose at eleven o’clock and dressed and prayed to the Lord. Then I wrote until four o’clock and laid down my pen and slept until six o’clock. Ms182-1898.22

Thursday, May 19, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I slept until half past two o’clock. I commenced my work of writing and wrote nearly all day. Ms182-1898.23

Mr. and Mrs. _____ came to make me a short visit. They are from India, and he is in delicate health. He came to Australia for his health, leaving two children, one nine years old and the other seven, in India. He has been under treatment at the Health Home and has greatly improved. He came to Cooranbong that he might be benefited with the climate, work out-of-doors making a garden, and see how this would do in improving his health. He is a fine appearing man and we hope will receive the truth. His wife is convinced of the truth and was quite earnest that her husband should take his position on the truth. Ms182-1898.24

Friday, May 20, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

Sara and I went to Morisset. We mailed our letters at Cooranbong. We took the twins with us. They are very interesting little fellows, chattering to the birds and to the logging bullock teams which we met and which we passed. We brought up from the station a load of provisions that had come on the train from Newcastle. I had risen early in the morning to get off letters for the office and was very thankful to keep out in the open air. Ms182-1898.25

Saturday, May 21, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I spoke in the chapel at Avondale to a large congregation. There was reason for thanksgiving to God that we have a nice roomy chapel to accommodate the students coming to our school. I entered the chapel for the first time after three months’ absence. I was in Melbourne and Stanmore, where I spoke from the Word twenty-two times; and I was not able to labor for several weeks, so did not attend meetings. The writing must be done. Ms182-1898.26

I bore a plain testimony, referring to the work essential to be done right where we are in Cooranbong. The Lord gave me freedom in speaking from the last words of Christ before His ascension, and the commission given to His disciples: (Matthew 28:16-20); the preparation to bring to the work. Acts 1:8-14; Acts 2:1-4, 39, 46, 47. Ms182-1898.27

We were called to Melbourne to help in the work that has been going forward in Balaclava since the camp meeting. We had freedom in addressing those who had not known the truth and were unbelievers. Brother and Sister Robinson, and Brother Herbert Lacey and his wife had been connected with them in the work; also several who were in the mission home who were making interested efforts in visiting and giving Bible readings. About forty had taken their stand to obey the truth. Of this number most were quite poor. Here we found Sister Robinson doing the work of ministering, fully as valuable as any ordained minister. Ms182-1898.28

There had been and still was a good interest, worked by the Holy Spirit, which could not be left to die. The tent had to come down because the winds would take it to pieces. Halls were in such demand for balls and concerts, and religious meetings as well, that there was only a small room that could be obtained, in the most out-of-the-way place. It was illy ventilated and was not at all favorable for meetings, but it was the best to be obtained. Ms182-1898.29

The objectionable situation depressed us. There was no money in the treasury. There was land that had been purchased, but the money to build—where was it coming from? The idolaters who keep up everything conceivable in the line of concerts, theaters, and balls take the minds of the people with everything in the line of pleasure-loving, that God might be put out of their minds. But we must try to counterwork these many devisings, to stimulate with hope. Every word must be to encourage, for I am instructed that faith and not doubt must win the victory. What is faith? It “is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” [Hebrews 11:1.] Ms182-1898.30

We had hoped that those who acted a part in strong influence to place us here would feel some burden to raise the means to open new fields and create an influence so that we could furnish suitable places to hold our meetings. I am troubled with the outlook. I have had matters opened to me that money is being expended unwisely in many places and not producing results. Why is this? Let the work be done where thousands of people have never heard the first, second, and third angels’ messages. Ms182-1898.31

Who is carrying this managing work in America? Who is doing the business? Who is managing? We have our minds drawn to America, but we must establish something in buildings. We dare not give up the work. We are laboring in every way possible to teach Bible truth, to awaken an interest, and we are creating an impression. We gather hope and courage. We must not think or talk of failure. Many souls must be saved. Ms182-1898.32

Sunday, May 22, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I thank the Lord I rested well last night. My heart was drawn out in earnest prayer to God that He would work for the people in this vicinity. They need to be hunted up, that souls that are ready to perish may be like the lost sheep brought into the fold. We have appointed a Sunday evening meeting and we shall invite all outsiders to attend. We are not to put our light under a bed, that is, confine it to our family and forget that all who have been privileged to hear the truth must hear not only for themselves but to communicate to others that which they hear. Time is passing into eternity and but little has been done to save perishing souls who know not the truth. We must not hide our light under a bushel. This means, Let not your commercial interests absorb all the mind and occupy all the time. Eternal interests shall not be made inferior to the temporal. The Great Teacher asks, “What shall it profit a man if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul? Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?” Mark 8:36, 37. Ms182-1898.33

May 23, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I thank the Lord with heart and voice this morning, May [23], 1898, that although unable to sleep as early as usual I am thankful to arise at four o’clock a.m., dress, and seek the Lord in earnest, committing all my interest into His hands. I used my pen until seven o’clock. Then we all united in reading around, each reading two verses, and then the Lord gave me much freedom in prayer. Ms182-1898.34

The meeting Sunday evening was a success. The chapel was full. Quite a number walked or came with their conveyances five and six miles. We have now appointed regular Sunday evening meetings. All seemed to be interested, even all that were not of our faith. We welcomed them and were rejoiced to have them in the meeting. This is the very object of these meetings, that we may impart to the people the knowledge we have in regard to the Word, to encourage them to cultivate their lands. Ms182-1898.35

There were fifteen-minute speeches by different ones—W. C. White, Professor Hughes and his wife, Herbert Lacey, and several others. I think an excellent impression was made and a better and more correct understanding was gained in regard to muscular Christianity, which should be brought into the education in all our schools. Ms182-1898.36

May Lacey White and the twins accompanied W. C. White to Morisset station to take the morning train for Sydney. He was sent for to be present in their councils. Important matters are to be considered. Sister Hardy came to consult with me and relieve her mind of a burden. I devoted one hour to conversation. She is much concerned in regard to her son, Eben Hardy. I tried to relieve her mind. Sister Hughes called upon me to consult as to the best way to relieve the poor and to arrange so that the poor children shall come into the school. Ms182-1898.37

Brother Thomson’s family moved from a small home they had been occupying. We furnished beds and bedding to make them comfortable. They have set up two tents and say they are very comfortable. Brother Thomson finished his job upon my windows. He expects his wife and five children will be up from Parramatta in four weeks to live in Cooranbong. Ms182-1898.38

I had about one hour’s conversation with Ella May White. Ms182-1898.39

Tuesday, May 24, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I did not sleep well last night, but I thank the Lord that I am as well as I am this morning. I became weary with taxing conversation of serious importance. Have written a letter to Eben Hardy urging him to come to school and learn all that he could, with the object before him, especially, to have a more thorough knowledge of the Word of God. I feel anxious for the young man, for he is under temptation. Ms182-1898.40

Sara and I rode out this morning to the post office. It was a beautiful day. We engaged Mr. O’Neal to move the small house in which May Lacey’s twins were born. It is to be fitted up for working rooms. Ms182-1898.41

Elder Haskell and his wife called and I appreciated the visit. We are trying to make arrangements in regard to the Week of Prayer—how we shall divide our forces, all to tell to the best account in laboring in this place and in Stanmore and accomplishing the most good possible. May the Lord direct us in our arrangements as to the places where we should be. We had interesting conversation in regard to the interest at Stanmore. We are considering in regard to who shall be with them during the Week of Prayer—W. C. White and his mother or Elder Haskell. May the Lord direct in this matter. Ms182-1898.42

After Elder Haskell left us, there was some reconsideration of the proposition that I should go to Stanmore. I had not thought of the seventy-five pages of my book recently brought to us on the boat from America. W. C. White must read these pages with myself and Marian. Then again, Marian is waiting for me to write upon the parables, which must be sent as soon as possible. Again, it is positively the duty of the father of a family to be with that family as much as possible at such times as the Week of Prayer. By the combined influence of faith and prayer Abraham was to rule his household and children. Like David he was to walk within his own house with a perfect heart, cultivating home religion, and thus help his children to keep the way of the Lord. Ms182-1898.43

Wednesday, May 25, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I am thankful to my heavenly Father for the rest I have had during the night. It is my privilege to have peace and rest in spirit. The grace of Christ is promised to all them that receive Him and believe in Him as their personal Saviour. This we must all do, else we will not have wisdom to resist the temptations of Satan. We may look to the living Fountain, but we must know for ourselves what it means to us to drink of the waters of life, and to eat of the flesh of the Son of God—which is to accept the Word by living faith. The drinking of His blood is the appropriating of the Word that it shall be digested and shall circulate through our whole system. As the blood circulates through the body, so the drinking the blood of the Son of God—in meditating on the Word and practicing every principle the Lord has given us in His lessons—brings it as a vital current into our hearts. Then, when Satan tempts the human agent upon the point of appetite, as he did our Redeemer, we may say, “Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.” Matthew 4:4. Ms182-1898.44

I attended the mothers’ meeting. There were about twenty assembled and the Lord gave me His word to the mothers. The Lord is our educator. The instruction I presented was upon how to treat their children when sick, and thus prevent suffering and death. The Lord is our Helper. We are to do what we can and to believe and pray that the Lord, the great Physician, may attend unto our prayer, for children and parents are to be ruled by Him. Ms182-1898.45

We were pleased when going to Dora Creek to meet W. C. White half way, coming from the cars. We rode back to the station, expecting some freight, but none came. We then examined a house which had been used for a schoolroom and engaged it for holding Sabbath school meetings to accommodate the children who could not come to the chapel. We have engaged this room for the Week of Prayer, holding meetings in it every day in the week. The students are appointed to go out into the surrounding neighborhoods to have little gatherings in the homes of those who know not the truth, and encourage them to come to the chapel. Ms182-1898.46

May 26, 1898

Sunnyside, Cooranbong

To Elder Haskell:

I have been, through the grace of Christ, able to decide the question of where I shall be during the Week of Prayer. I talked the matter over with Elder Haskell and I consented to be at Stanmore to help them, and Elder Haskell remain here. But during the night season I was laboring in this place, and I saw much that I should do here. I have no light to leave for Stanmore. I have borne my testimony in this place but once in three months, and I have words to speak to the people here. I spent two Sabbaths and Sundays at Stanmore only a few weeks since. Ms182-1898.47

Still other considerations weigh much against my going to Stanmore. W. C. White and Sara McEnterfer must accompany me. That leaves Willie’s family without a head during the season of prayer, and my family without our help during this period when they need us the most, that all may blend together. Then here are people to get acquainted with—our neighbors at Dora Creek and Martinsville—and our horses and wagons must bring all who cannot well get to the meetings. Ms182-1898.48

The Parables must be carefully read and considerable matter prepared on them. These and other matters cannot be set aside. The next mail must carry to America matters of highest importance. These are my reasons for deciding I can accomplish the very work that must be done in connection with W. C. White and Marian Davis. My duty was laid out plainly before me in the night season Tuesday night, and I present this to you, Elder Haskell. After this Week of Prayer, if the Lord gives me strength, I will visit Stanmore and do the best I can. But I believe that you are the very man that can conduct these important meetings at this time with success. These reasons are sufficient without trying to present any more proof. Ms182-1898.49

(Signed) Ellen G. White

Oh how glad I was to meet W. C. White all unexpectedly, for I wished to tell him my decision; but as he expected to be gone several days to Sydney, Sara and I were on our way to Dora Creek to see the place selected for meetings during the Week of Prayer. It was an old schoolhouse enclosed—no finishing within, only had wooden benches without backs. The location was good. Ms182-1898.50

This place was the best we could procure, to be used through the Week of Prayer. Brother Herbert Lacey spoke several times in this place, leaving an excellent impression. There was a good interest created. [In spite of] the uninviting, rude place all seemed to listen with deepest interest. Ms182-1898.51

Thursday, May 26, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

I thank the Lord this morning that I am feeling rested. I have slept well until four o’clock. I need so much the grace of Christ in my own heart, that I may impart the same in all places. The Word of God is to be our guidance. The Holy One has given rules that form the standard from which there can be no variableness and haphazard movements. Ms182-1898.52

The first principles of holiness have yet to be learned where God’s will is not prominent. Households and children are to be controlled by a “Thus saith the Lord.” The standard for every member of the family is to keep the way of the Lord. Neither parents nor children, nor any member of the household, can expect to prosper in any path except to keep the way of the Lord. When the fear of the Lord is kept ever before us, His love will be in our hearts and His peace will be an abiding presence. His salvation will be revealed to those who love and fear Him, to be communicated to others. Ms182-1898.53

Sara and I rode four and half miles to Morisset to get letter copy books for my writing. We gave the twins the advantage of the ride. They enjoy being in the open air, and especially riding. Ms182-1898.54

Friday, May 27, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

This day I thank the Lord I am as well as I am. I have reason to be very grateful to our heavenly Father for His light and His love. W. C. White, May Lacey White, the twins, and myself rode to Morisset for goods. Ms182-1898.55

The First Sabbath of the Week of Prayer, May 28, 1898

The Lord blessed me with rest and sleep during the past night. I am grateful to God for precious rest. In my private prayer, after rising and at the family altar, I asked the Lord to be with us this day and bless His people. Ms182-1898.56

There was a meeting in the forenoon after the Sabbath school. Quite a number of our neighbors at Dora Creek and Martinsville attended the meeting. Some brought luncheons but we prepared food for most of them. They took their refreshments under the trees. About forty-five united in this partaking of food together, and all seemed to have an enjoyable time. At three o’clock I spoke to the people in regard to the parable Jesus gave to His disciples, concerning the leaven which the woman put in the meal. Ms182-1898.57

Sunday After noon, May 29, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

The Lord gave me rest in sleep. I am so thankful for His mercy and His love. Brother and Sister Herbert Lacey accompanied W. C. White and myself to the meeting in a disused schoolhouse which had been hired especially to hold our Sabbath meetings and meetings during the Week of Prayer. We hired the house for holding meetings as we chose through the week. Ms182-1898.58

There were forty-two present and they listened with most earnest attention. I had much freedom speaking to them from (Matthew 6): “Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon the earth,” etc. “Consider the lilies of the field how they grow,” etc. [Verses 19, 28.] Brother Herbert Lacey and his wife conducted the singing. We hope the little company of believers—who were mostly fisherman—and unbelievers, were hearing and receiving the seeds of truth. Ms182-1898.59

I was much pleased to see that the children manifested interest in hearing the words spoken. I am impressed that we should make appeals to the youth and in simple language invite them to give their hearts to the Saviour. We are to consider the temptations which come to the children, and make every effort to make the meetings interesting for the children. The work that needs to be done is to open the way that children may take in the fact that Jesus love them and will be greatly pleased if they will love Him and give their young hearts to Him. Parents and children should be united in their willing service to God. Ms182-1898.60

Monday, May 30, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

Early morning meetings were appointed to be held in the church building at six o’clock. We harnessed our horses to the platform wagon and went to the church. In the small side room we met seventeen men and women. We spent some time in prayer and then I spoke to them some little time upon faith. Ms182-1898.61

Tuesday, May 31, 1898

[Sunnyside, Cooranbong]

Tuesday at nine o’clock the school chapel was crowded with students and teachers. I read to them important matter in reference to that which is comprehended in true service to God, in thorough consecration to God, entire sanctification of soul, body, and spirit. Ms182-1898.62

We read in Isaiah, “The pleasure of the Lord shall prosper in his hand. He shall see of the travail of his soul and be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.” Isaiah 53:10, 11. Faith in these words will make all those who believe them truly to be earnest and sincere in faith and trust and confidence in God. Ms182-1898.63

The subject presented in the Tuesday morning service was a continuation of the entrusted talents, followed by a testimony meeting in which many students took part. I endeavored to impress upon their minds the necessity of ever working on the faith side, and they will then become, in the hands of Christ, a vessel unto honor, because they are colaborers with Jesus Christ. They are to say, “Come thou with us.” [Numbers 10:29.] It is a great opportunity and privilege. Ms182-1898.64