Letters and Manuscripts — Volume 6 (1889-1890)

Lt 92, 1890

White, W. C.; White, Mary

Crystal Springs, St. Helena, California

May 15, 1890

Previously unpublished.

Dear Willie and Mary:

I have been sorely afflicted. Last night was very weak. Sister Lockwood is taking Sara. She left for to see to my things in Healdsburg. Yesterday noon she went; will [be] alone for three nights. I have had a hard time. Night before last the rheumatism attacked my left arm, causing me great suffering. Last night every joint in my body was full of pain. I could not obtain rest and sleep. I thought of the process I must go through with during the day in the vapor bath, which is [a] very taxing process in my weak condition with constant fear of the result on my heart. The pain commenced to dart through my heart about midnight. 6LtMs, Lt 92, 1890, par. 1

Then suddenly the form of Jesus appeared to me so distinctly amid the gloom and the fog. His words were, “Fear not, the destroyer has been at work upon your body. I am the Restorer. I will heal thee. I will give thee peace and rest.” 6LtMs, Lt 92, 1890, par. 2

Oh, what a change came over me, a profuse perspiration broke over me and my heart and lips were filled with praise and gladness and rejoicing. I was instructed that I must not look to my pain and my infirmities, but I must look to the Healer. Look and live. 6LtMs, Lt 92, 1890, par. 3

I am full of hope and joy and peace today and I will not distrust my dear Saviour. I was instructed that His eye has been upon me in all my feebleness, and some things were said which are a lesson to me in the future. I will not write much now for my eyes will not admit of it. I have had congestion of brain and inflammation of the eyes for about one week. Excuse this short epistle. It may relieve you. 6LtMs, Lt 92, 1890, par. 4

Love to dear Mary and children. 6LtMs, Lt 92, 1890, par. 5

Mother.