Letters and Manuscripts — Volume 3 (1876 - 1882)

Lt 18, 1880

White, James

Oakland, California

April 2, 1880

Previously unpublished.

Dear Husband:

The brethren are coming into the Conference and I have been talking with Brother Chapman. 3LtMs, Lt 18, 1880, par. 1

Edwin is coming into the office to work in the counting room. This is his choice. He is a young man of sterling worth. 3LtMs, Lt 18, 1880, par. 2

I sent you a letter this morning. This noon brought me one from you, dated March 27, in which you speak of not coming to California but printing the Experiences, etc. 3LtMs, Lt 18, 1880, par. 3

I still plead for the Volume Two, Spiritual Gifts, to be republished just as it is. You cannot tell what a demand there is for this book. 3LtMs, Lt 18, 1880, par. 4

I write now to tell you that I shall not go to Oregon unless you can be so situated that you will not take on burdens. Will you go to the Mountains before June? I could go to Oregon, I suppose, and get back by the last of June to Colorado. Please consider this matter carefully. I am constantly worried over you, fearing you will take too many responsibilities, and then I fear many things which keep my heart in difficulty. 3LtMs, Lt 18, 1880, par. 5

I dread going to Oregon but they all seem to be set upon my coming. Would not Elder Waggoner and some one else answer? I shall pray over this matter, but I dread the journey more because my heart troubles me so much. I am troubled with feelings of suffocation. Seems as though my breath would stop and I feel a pain all the time. Not one moment’s ease. I cannot sleep nights. 3LtMs, Lt 18, 1880, par. 6

Well, the Sabbath is drawing on. I must close. 3LtMs, Lt 18, 1880, par. 7

Your Ellen.